haha for some reason i thought this was SO cute and hilarious.

today was SO good. i woke up... went to swimming DRESSED, we didn't have to get in today. i went to US history after that. my us history teacher is hilarious. hes an old man but still has such a good sense of humor, so that should be interesting. i didn't know if i had any friends in that class but once i walked in every fun person i knew was there haha... so i'm stoked about that. i then went onto psychology a couple hours later. my teacher is seriously ross from friends. he looks exactly like him and has the same sense of humor. he had the whole class laughing. theres probably 200 people or more in that class. it was packed. and he still managed to have us interacting with each other rand with him. it was great. this semester is going to be VERY different than the last one. its going to be good though, a new start. something new... and refreshing. god is already doing rad things and preparing my heart for things.

on a side note: i am most likely going to north carolina this summer!! but one of the bad things is they hired way to many counselors from spain, france, and mexico that there weren't enough counselor spots open once i turned in my stuff. so my job is assistant cook! haha... and i DO NOT cook. i can cook, but i'm not good at it. i was never one of those people on mission trip working in the kitchen. i am excited though. i told my friend ryan that and he said "i saw a sign that said god doesn't call the qualified, he qualifies the called!" and hes right haha.
soo we'll see if i go or not.

okay, adios.

back at b-i-o-l-a ...

i am back at biola! i have realized it takes a little push to get me places. i get comfyyy soo fast. in every situation. if i'm at the pool swimming-i never want to go, if i'm on the couch sleeping- i never want to wake up, if i am at a restaurant talking and laughing wtih friends- i don't want to go, if i GO HOME FOR 6 WEEKS- i want to keep living there, if i am at biola for a semester- i don't think its long enough. so i guess it comes down to me wanting to "live in the moment" and "getting caught in the moment" way to much. it should be a syndrome of something. anyways, thats that.

today i had three classes, one of which i am going to drop.

i had OT with professor talley. i am SOOO excited for this class, although it will become my life. this professor is extremely hard and works us like crazy. he is super passionate about the old testament so we get to go through it and outline it, find the central theme of each chapter, condense it, yada yada. theres lots of stuff due for that class... i am pretty stoked though. i feel like i don't know enough about the OT, soo i am getting to see what God is going to do! i know hes going to be working in my heart in that way. thank goodness he's given me a desire for this class, or else it would be hard.

i also had biblical and spiritual formation with professor jung. I AM SOOO EXCITED FOR HER CLASS! she is the cutest lady ever. shes so soft spoken and is just a godly lady. i am excited to get to know her, maybe i'll ask her to go get coffee with me so we can chat about life and God. shes just amazing.

then i had health and wellness which i am DROPPINGGG. i thought it would good... and its only a one unit class, so maybe i'll find another class to fill it in with. it was just way to boring and i could take another PE.

tomorrow i have psychology, swimming, us history, and english. i am excited for all of them.. it shall be a good day.

i woke up this morning excited and sad. kind of an odd combination. so ia m going back to school tomorrow, instead of today- PRAISE GOD, and i am sooo happy about that. my friend from oregon is driving down and staying at my house tonight :) she is my best friend at biola SO it will be so so so so good to see her and drive down with her and giggle the whole way down. the past few days have been CRAZYYYY because i have been babysitting nonstop. i finally got a taste of what motherhood will be like. i thought i have gone through all babysitting situations, but i guess not. its sooo exhausting!!! man, power to mothers. whoever says being a mom isn't a full time job, is so wrong.
anyways... i am just so glad i get to stay here for one more day. i wasn't read mentally to leave... i know that sounds so lame, but seriously it was WAYYY to rushed because i would of been packing ALL night last night.

man this break was so good!

the last month and a half of my life.

most people know that i LOVE home. ever since i moved down to ugly L.A. i have fallen more and more in love with the bay area. the last month and a half of my life has been an extremely long break. at first i was like "AH this break is going to be so long, i will have SO much time!" but it has gone by kind of fast and kind of slow at the same time. i hope someone is catching my drift when i say that.

this break has consisted of:
1. A LOT of fun times.
2. heart break.
3. God revealing himself to me more evidently and getting back on track with him.
4. LOTS of random things... 2008 rolled in with randomness!
5. way to much thinking.
6. contentment.
7. realizing how BLESSED i am to have the family, friends, and CHURCH family i have.
so so so blessed.

some of my favorite things that happened:
1. tahoe trip! skiing= super fun.
2. cal poly trip! especially hiking on the rocks next to the ocean and swinging near the crashing waves :)
(haha i love trips by the way)
3. hiking pretty much every day :) enjoying God's creations obviously.
4. hanging out with friends NON-stop.
5. making new friendships and making others stronger :)
6. being super lazy
7. only waking up to an alarm clock on sunday mornings. what a life.
8. Marie Antoinette exhibit in san francisco, fun day.

people keep asking me if i am excited to go back to biola. yes, i am and i also am not haha.
i love school but i also love home. i have found that i can adapt pretty easily (adaptability was one of my #1 strengths on strength quest haha by the way, everyone should take that test), school is good though. i love the biola community. i just feel so blessed to be apart of both places. i have found that i have a lot of friends at school who don't have good friends or a good community at home, and that would SO NOT BE FUN. thank goodness, God has blessed us with that here.

people i am excited to see:
1. shannon- probably the only one who will read this haha. shan lives in ARIZONAAA. dryyyy arizona haha and she does not like hiking because well its hot and not fun there. shannon is my dear dear dear friend who surprisingly knows me pretty darn well for the amount of time we've known each-other. she knows that i change my mind all the time and secretly knows what i want and what i am thinking all the time. i don't get how she does, but its wonderful. she's amazing at keeping me accountable, having fun, good conversations, and just being silly. she hates linking arms and loves tickling my knee pits (worst feeling in the WHOLE WIDE world). we can share a good cup of tea together and be so content. she is very very passionate about prison ministry in argentina. which i love and think is AMAZING. this summer she's probably not going back to argentina though... and to guatemala to work in an orphanage. amazing.
2. rachel BAY BAY- my wing (wo)man! she lives in beautiful oregon and loves home just as much as i do. i feel like i giggle with her almost as much as i giggle with meghan haha... i know surprising! we start every text message with "haha" and i know she's not kidding when she says haha in things! see, i am not the only one! ahh i am so excited to see her and give her hugs! she has no idea what she wants her major to be, but i think she should do photo journalism or a PR thing. she loves to talk, gets along with everyone, has a joke about everything, and brightens a room! oh and her laugh is contagious. she works as an ambassador at school and gives people tours and promotes biola!
3. miss amy armstrong- who is such a catalina island girl. she just switched her major to photo journalism. shes pretty darn good at it too. she can make a story last way longer then anyone i know and is super super friendly and loving. she does't have a mean bone in her... or so i think haha jk. but seriously. shes probably going to guatemala with shan this summer, now that i think of it!! ah i'm excited to see her hippy self!
4. emily LEE- who is from the big state of texas! as we speak shes returning from egypt. shes been there for the last three weeks on a mission trip with biola. she got to evangelize and share/show the love of Jesus with an unreached people group! HOW COOL IS THAT! shes always giggling, gets along with everyone, and is oh so very nice.
5. DAVID J! haha i know you're totally reading this and wondering where you are. i am excited to se you tooo so we can work out, laugh, and talk about life and God! love it.

and LOTS of other people as well.

heres some quotes from my global studies class i took last SEM (and shannon's blog haha):

"finding God's will for your life will mean taking your life seriously, learning to be honest with yourself and your God. more important than what you will ever do for God is who you are before him. God is far more concerned with who you are than what you will end up doing; being proceeds doing."

"the goal is to live simply so others may simply live."

"i never wanted a career, i wanted a ministry. i prayed that God would give me a consuming passion for whatever i do."

well friends. today is quite the rainy day, but in the midst of it all, it's beautiful :) -sorry this could be the worlds longest BLOG!!!

haha one of my favorite songs is "imagine" by john lennon. mainly because i love the lyrics to this song. i was searching around on youtube looking at john lennon stuff (theres nothing really good by the way) and saw hilary's face and was in shock. so i watched this and thought it was somewhat entertaining haha. enjoy.

refreshed <3

i have been feeling SOO refreshed recently. i know its all because of the Lord. i've been trying to get into the Word daily and praying like its breathing- although its not exactly that much haha. lots of wonderful things have been going on in the past week.
i just got back from a dinner at the wilburs with my sister and my dad. the wilburs are our old neighbors. their kids are drake and isabella... drake is almost 7 (WOW i can't believe hes almost that old!) and isabella (who i call SISSY is almost 5)! anyways i have been babysitting them since drake was 2 months old! i just love them. they bring such joy to my heart and their, parents, who are pretty much like mine, are so so so dear to my heart. stef and bret, the parents, will probably be in the first row at my wedding. as lame as that sounds haha. i love them THAT much! haha. anyways dinner was just so pleasant. we talked about traveling, college, blessings, etc. and isabella was hanging all over me like a monkey all night haha. i read them stories good night and almost wanted to cry they were that cute. i find it fairly odd because i am only in college but i can't freaking wait to be a mom. ODD yes. i guess its one of those instincts. i just love kids. i was reading drake a story called "peter and the wolf" (don't read it... its not good haha) and he started reading it to me. hes in 1st grade. i had NO idea that kids could read well in 1st grade haha... i don't remember it atleast. i guess i did.

anyways that was a good time. we talked about my possible trip to hungary over SPRING BREAKK!!!! ahhh! and they said they would help support me. VBC, as many of you probably know, is going to hungary over spring break. while we are there, LORD WILLING that is, we will be doing a sport ministry, teaching english, and hanging out and loving on gypsies. UMM hello, so wonderful.

recently i've had this huge fascination with eastern europe and minority people groups. the gypsies fascinate me. there history is just nuts. my ancestors were from what is now the czech republic, and they were gypsies. haha i know gypsies are most of the time a form of a criminal... but whatever. they need love too.

anyways... i'm praying about that for sure.
while i was at dinner i also just had this realization of it doesn't matter what my major is haha. i was thinking "What did God put on my heart? When do i feel the most used? What makes my heart burst of joy and love for christ?"

andddd shabang. its when i am serving, traveling, loving, and when my heart is in line with Christ.

(sorry i feel bad when i talk about myself like this.. but its getting thoughts out haha)

so why is it that i want to switch majors, MAKE MONEY, and be comfortable? it all comes down to the fact that i want a "trade." something i am good at and can travel with. not necessarly just going out into the world without something to offer.
so theres 2 options: as of now that is...
a. teach english
b. do something medical... maybe a dental hygentist- i know super random. but when we were in belize meghan and i helped dr. chew with dental stuff and LOVED IT. maybe after college i'll go to some kind of school to do that.

besides that today was just wonderful and beautiful. i just love how the Lord is revealing his beauty to me more and more. i just love nature... more than most people i feel like. i wish there were creation appreciation class or something at school so people would fall more and more in love with nature. it would make the world such a better place haha. on that note i went on a hike with my sister over to sycamore grove in livermore.. it was more of a walk, BUT IT WAS BEAUTIFUL TODAY!

tomorrow i am having a mother daughter date with my mom. we are going to play tennis :) so fun!
anyways have a good one! love yal.

the bucket list slashhh 1 john

last night i had a wonderful mother-daughter date. my mother and i went to go see the bucket list. which actually was a really really reallyyyy good movie. if you put my mom and i in a movie theatre, its guaranteed we will cry no matter what kind of movie it is. and we did.
its worth seeing. it made me sad afterwards because my mom was like "Its so odd getting older, there are still so many places i want to go and things to do! But one of my life goals has been fulfilled... i got to take you and your sister to europe." thats when the "awwww's" came in. such a blessing to be able to travel with her.

so this is a little blog spot shout out to my mama. haha... whom i love dearly. some day she wants to travel to ireland and find where all her ancestors were from. and i want to go to the czech republic to do the same for my dad's side of the family.

hmm.. enough on that subject.
today i woke up and has the urge to read john 1. i read half of it last night, but i was so pumped when i woke up. i read through it and over and over again it repeated how we know we are in God, how to love, how the spirit leads us, how we need to walk as he did, etc.
although all of that stuck with me, there was one verse that popped out on me.

there is no fear in love, but perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. the one who fears is not made in perfect love. 1 john 4:18

bottom line: i am fearful and need to over come that. haha... i could go on more but it would be so gibber gabby it wouldn't make much sense.

anywho its HIKE time. i'm going up the the ridge. its beautiful today :)

there it is.

renewal of many things

2008 is here, yeah?
but what does that mean? for another year to go on as if its normal. partly. but this year is going to be different. i feel like this year is going to be a year of renewal, of growth, and of DEEP things. haha doesn't that sound somewhat cheesey coming from me?
but it so true. in the past month or so i have felt lazy- due the fact i am not working and i have a month and a half off. at the same time i've done many things, hung out with people, had good conversations, gotten in trouble-yes, seen God work in wonderful ways, felt him moving me closer to him, and then falling away at the same time.

there are many things i've been discovering about myself from situations i've been put into. this break has been a break of odd situations that God has placed me in. i've been broken and i am in the process of being put back together.

i feel as if i am a puzzle that is not finished and won't be for a while.
but its OKAYYY.... good news. Jesus wants to show me things.
so this is a time of confusion, but its okay. it builds trust right?

i've been bouncing around the ideas of transferring, different majors, etc.
but it all comes down to, what am I, Angela, passionate about?

one of my professors once told me "Guard your passions, the world will distroy them." and it is somewhat true. there are so many things the Lord has placed on my heart that i have let go away.

i am passionate about people, world issues, world affairs, traveling, making people see joy and light through love.

it comes down to that.