I just tried to take a nap and woke up because I couldn't stop thinking about Belize. I opened my eyes and looked over of a picture of Jem, Mikey, and Jamika and started to tear up. I miss them so much. I don't know if they remember me, and if they don't I hope they remember that Christ loves them and that others have shared that with them. I know the Lord will do a work in their life.
I wonder how old they are from time to time. I think Mikey is almost 10. So that means Jem is probably 13... holy crap. Wow.
I wonder what there home life is like. Has their mom stopped being a prostitute? Is there Dad still abusive? Do they still gather scraps of food? Is there heart still filled with innocent joy of being a child? Or has reality hit them? Have they come to know the Lord?
All of these thoughts fill my mind. There is one thing I do know. The Lord loves them so much. Our God is a good God and loves. He died for all three of them and their family. If they haven't come to know Him, He wants them too. He is our protector.
I think about Belize almost every day. Sometimes I wonder if its myself making myself think about it or if its the Holy Spirit reminding me to pray for them and preparing me to go back. I would do anything to go back to Punta Gorda.
I love them. And Belize so much. And I love that God loves them even more.
1 comment:
baby, you have SUCH a kind heart. and i feel that God will totally bless these longings in your heart to return to where you felt His calling for you. pray that He will still your heart until He provides a way for you to return. hang in there.
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