haha one of my favorite songs is "imagine" by john lennon. mainly because i love the lyrics to this song. i was searching around on youtube looking at john lennon stuff (theres nothing really good by the way) and saw hilary's face and was in shock. so i watched this and thought it was somewhat entertaining haha. enjoy.

refreshed <3

i have been feeling SOO refreshed recently. i know its all because of the Lord. i've been trying to get into the Word daily and praying like its breathing- although its not exactly that much haha. lots of wonderful things have been going on in the past week.
i just got back from a dinner at the wilburs with my sister and my dad. the wilburs are our old neighbors. their kids are drake and isabella... drake is almost 7 (WOW i can't believe hes almost that old!) and isabella (who i call SISSY is almost 5)! anyways i have been babysitting them since drake was 2 months old! i just love them. they bring such joy to my heart and their, parents, who are pretty much like mine, are so so so dear to my heart. stef and bret, the parents, will probably be in the first row at my wedding. as lame as that sounds haha. i love them THAT much! haha. anyways dinner was just so pleasant. we talked about traveling, college, blessings, etc. and isabella was hanging all over me like a monkey all night haha. i read them stories good night and almost wanted to cry they were that cute. i find it fairly odd because i am only in college but i can't freaking wait to be a mom. ODD yes. i guess its one of those instincts. i just love kids. i was reading drake a story called "peter and the wolf" (don't read it... its not good haha) and he started reading it to me. hes in 1st grade. i had NO idea that kids could read well in 1st grade haha... i don't remember it atleast. i guess i did.

anyways that was a good time. we talked about my possible trip to hungary over SPRING BREAKK!!!! ahhh! and they said they would help support me. VBC, as many of you probably know, is going to hungary over spring break. while we are there, LORD WILLING that is, we will be doing a sport ministry, teaching english, and hanging out and loving on gypsies. UMM hello, so wonderful.

recently i've had this huge fascination with eastern europe and minority people groups. the gypsies fascinate me. there history is just nuts. my ancestors were from what is now the czech republic, and they were gypsies. haha i know gypsies are most of the time a form of a criminal... but whatever. they need love too.

anyways... i'm praying about that for sure.
while i was at dinner i also just had this realization of it doesn't matter what my major is haha. i was thinking "What did God put on my heart? When do i feel the most used? What makes my heart burst of joy and love for christ?"

andddd shabang. its when i am serving, traveling, loving, and when my heart is in line with Christ.

(sorry i feel bad when i talk about myself like this.. but its getting thoughts out haha)

so why is it that i want to switch majors, MAKE MONEY, and be comfortable? it all comes down to the fact that i want a "trade." something i am good at and can travel with. not necessarly just going out into the world without something to offer.
so theres 2 options: as of now that is...
a. teach english
b. do something medical... maybe a dental hygentist- i know super random. but when we were in belize meghan and i helped dr. chew with dental stuff and LOVED IT. maybe after college i'll go to some kind of school to do that.

besides that today was just wonderful and beautiful. i just love how the Lord is revealing his beauty to me more and more. i just love nature... more than most people i feel like. i wish there were creation appreciation class or something at school so people would fall more and more in love with nature. it would make the world such a better place haha. on that note i went on a hike with my sister over to sycamore grove in livermore.. it was more of a walk, BUT IT WAS BEAUTIFUL TODAY!

tomorrow i am having a mother daughter date with my mom. we are going to play tennis :) so fun!
anyways have a good one! love yal.

the bucket list slashhh 1 john

last night i had a wonderful mother-daughter date. my mother and i went to go see the bucket list. which actually was a really really reallyyyy good movie. if you put my mom and i in a movie theatre, its guaranteed we will cry no matter what kind of movie it is. and we did.
its worth seeing. it made me sad afterwards because my mom was like "Its so odd getting older, there are still so many places i want to go and things to do! But one of my life goals has been fulfilled... i got to take you and your sister to europe." thats when the "awwww's" came in. such a blessing to be able to travel with her.

so this is a little blog spot shout out to my mama. haha... whom i love dearly. some day she wants to travel to ireland and find where all her ancestors were from. and i want to go to the czech republic to do the same for my dad's side of the family.

hmm.. enough on that subject.
today i woke up and has the urge to read john 1. i read half of it last night, but i was so pumped when i woke up. i read through it and over and over again it repeated how we know we are in God, how to love, how the spirit leads us, how we need to walk as he did, etc.
although all of that stuck with me, there was one verse that popped out on me.

there is no fear in love, but perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. the one who fears is not made in perfect love. 1 john 4:18

bottom line: i am fearful and need to over come that. haha... i could go on more but it would be so gibber gabby it wouldn't make much sense.

anywho its HIKE time. i'm going up the the ridge. its beautiful today :)

there it is.

renewal of many things

2008 is here, yeah?
but what does that mean? for another year to go on as if its normal. partly. but this year is going to be different. i feel like this year is going to be a year of renewal, of growth, and of DEEP things. haha doesn't that sound somewhat cheesey coming from me?
but it so true. in the past month or so i have felt lazy- due the fact i am not working and i have a month and a half off. at the same time i've done many things, hung out with people, had good conversations, gotten in trouble-yes, seen God work in wonderful ways, felt him moving me closer to him, and then falling away at the same time.

there are many things i've been discovering about myself from situations i've been put into. this break has been a break of odd situations that God has placed me in. i've been broken and i am in the process of being put back together.

i feel as if i am a puzzle that is not finished and won't be for a while.
but its OKAYYY.... good news. Jesus wants to show me things.
so this is a time of confusion, but its okay. it builds trust right?

i've been bouncing around the ideas of transferring, different majors, etc.
but it all comes down to, what am I, Angela, passionate about?

one of my professors once told me "Guard your passions, the world will distroy them." and it is somewhat true. there are so many things the Lord has placed on my heart that i have let go away.

i am passionate about people, world issues, world affairs, traveling, making people see joy and light through love.

it comes down to that.